Have mercy. So many things I don’t know where to start. Gratitude overload today.
I’m so ridiculously grateful for my dear, wise and amazing friend who always knows when to appear at the right moment. Love her long time.
I’m grateful for spontaneous creativity that creates a beautiful outcome.
I’m so insanely grateful for opportunities unfolding.
I’m grateful for a happy heart.
I’m just so grateful.
I lost him for a few hours. An uncharacteristic fleeting, foolish and careless moment on my part was to blame. A numbing chill came over me. The thought of his absence made time stop and elongate like a Salvador Dali painting. The time-space distortion forced me to reexamine the truth. Although he quickly moved on to love someone else and I was a distant thought, he still mattered to me. His happiness still mattered to me. His well being still mattered to me. He was still in my heart. A fact I’d been fighting tooth and nail. A fact that made me feel foolish for not having full control over my emotions or my slow moving heart. In the process I created distance physically and emotionally as a means to cope. The reality is I should have been doing the opposite. Resistance creates self-imposed pain.
I decided not to fight the thoughts but embrace them as a way to let go. Face it. Walk toward it. Walk through it to get to the other side. It served as a reminder of the way life should be lived. Every facet of life whether easy, benign or daunting. . Embrace, walk through and get to the other side; to a clearer reality.
So many lessons still unfolding; countless more to embrace. The universe is always challenging me, preparing me, protecting me and I’m grateful.